Looking Back At The Impact Of My Decisions

As I give a big thank you to me, celebrating the anniversary birth of yours truly and reflecting on what I see in the rearview mirror. Oh man, what a year it turned out to be for a 20-something.

I will start with the bitter aspects of the journey just so as to end on the sweet side. Relations be like... I got back together with my x-lady, after spending almost 2 months apart for some stupid sh** I did. I have never been one to give relationships a second try, but there I was trying things.

It was 2020, the world within a pandemic and its effects on normal life, so why continue living normally? We broke up in the second week of Lockdown Level 5. Prior to us calling it off; she asked if I was confident that our relationship would survive the Lockdown. It was at this moment! I knew the best before date was approaching. At least this time around, it took me less than a month to get over her. Shout out to me!

I put off critical tasks that perhaps would have, could have, should have… don’t you just hate a shoulda-coulda-woulda kind of a person? I know I do! I was such a person. I studied and attended a workshop in preparation for a regulatory exam to qualify as a representative and key individual for my financial business; I just never booked to write it.

I never registered my NGO; which would have added to the corporate social responsibility of my business. I did not search for an agency to join and become a model, I still look handsome though, these features are my assets. I am a pretty MF! (laughs confidently)

I did not practice sketching and painting, though I have the innate ability. I dragged my feet with setting up my administrative freelance services. I did not establish myself enough as a private Skills Development Facilitator for these corporates. I have been saying I will complete my TEFL certification, YESES! Cleary I am sleeping on myself and every time the alarm rings, I snooze to a nonexistent time and date.

I feel as though I may have been idling throughout the year. My procrastination has gotten noticibly better. Being preoccupied with tasks I set myself up with helped me manage my anxiety and self diagnosed depression, not that it was severe but there were times where I felt defeated with myself, unworthy of happiness in my own being.

Due to my new habits, my anxiety attacks have reduced drastically. I stopped projecting my fears and any ill vibe into the physical realm, from my spirit and became more accepting of my life experience. These changes lead to an overwhelming flow of peace from within. My cup did in fact overflow; I practiced gratitude using the 21/90 rule. I wanted to feel whole so that the Universe could conspire with me instead of against me.

I am extremely proud of my creative writing; this is one of many blogs that are on my website that I have published. I conquered my fear of being vulnerable with strangers, somehow I care less about embarrassing myself and I love it. I completed a Digital Marketing course and through this platform right here, you will bear witness to its practical application. Speaking of which, you have to download my app. It will make your experience of the MEM blog much more simple. Click on this link http://wix.to/EcCoDF4 to download my new project.

I am excited about my syrup brand gaining notoriety; constant marketing really helped me generate brand awareness, not to the extent that I would love but enough for me to see progress and to feel motivated to do more.

Mentally I am in a free-flow state, once hell-bent on things I have no control over. I have learned what it means to allow the process to do the damn things. I stopped comparing myself to my peers and those living the life I dream of; instead, I compared who I was yesterday to who I am today. It relieved a lot of the superficial pressure that made me feel less worthy, now I am Super Official. The pressure I experience now is natural and it continues to push me closer to a version of myself, a version that is something great-greater-GREATEST!

Now that you are done reading about me, I would really like to know how you feel or the thoughts that go through your mind whenever you approach your birthday or a significant event on its anniversary. Please leave a comment, like this blog, and share it with someone... anyone!

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